“You don’t fall in love with the solution you fall in love with the problem”-Paul Carrick Brunson
The concept of altering ones self to adhere or oblige to external presences is a problem that I contend with daily. Making this gigantic pivot from trying to appease everyone to simply pleasing Isaiah. I have heard it said that one should disallow external influences to dictate or define their decisions. However I am here to say that it is much more complicated then simply flicking a switch on and off, especially when the physical switch doesn’t exist. Some days as I walk down the street I feel stares burning through my blazer, like spotlights, spotlights that accentuate my imperfections, or when I am sharing with people my plans for N-ovate I see their faces scrunch up as though they have heard something so repulsing that it has punctured a hole through their skull. Regarding N-ovate I commonly get responses such as this is a temporary distraction from you getting a traditional job, or why not transition this into an auxiliary plan? My response to them is why can’t this be my primary plan? In the traditional employment setting I don’t get the same mental stimulation, in this uniform employment setting I don’t posses the same amount of eagerness and responsiveness. I have come to the realization that I have created a fabricated version of Isaiah, one that doesn’t align with my values and morals and one that I am incredibly dissatisfied in. I often ask myself if I were to stay in a traditional job what would be my motivation, especially with no kids and no family? Unfortunately, I haven’t come up with one or rather I haven’t had the courage to lie to myself about what it would be. Let me be the first to say that I am in the midst of working on developing a external mental filter, this conscious mechanism would ultimately allow me protection from the harsh critics and allow me to transform their negative comments into fuel to expand my horizons… wait this concept exists its called mental fortitude. In parallel, the expression this “is your life live it” has emerged in the forefront and has encouraged many of my ideas and ventures, ultimately inspiring my reformed lifestyle the development of a lifestyle that is conducive to creating a legacy one that my offsprings can be proud off. Being intentional in conducting myself in a manner that my unborn offsprings are proud in replicating.
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